Sunday, July 31, 2022

2805 Sunday, July 31st - afternoon

12:41… I did finish watching the Jays game and I thought about restarting to watch the BBC’s Sherlock, but there have been some thoughts floating around in my head the last few days and I thought I would try and tackle them… just to see what comes out.

There have been some larger topics floating around, some of which I may have touched on before. I have done a terrible job of adding those things to the Random Thoughts collection for times like this, so feeling ambitious, I might have a look there and see what I have thought of before.

“There is no desire for me to leave anything behind.”

This thought came to me again this morning, thinking mainly about my collection of DVDs in my Dad’s basement and I have been wondering, “just how valuable are they?” With most, if not all, important videos available through the streaming services, are my DVDs valuable enough to move from place to place and then show off at a new location? I highly doubt it. Are they going to be worth the storage space? Again, I highly doubt it.

Some time ago, I’m talking years ago, I managed to find a pawn shop that took all my CDs back when I was full on downloading my music and now with Spotify, I certainly don’t miss them. Never once have I wished that I still had the CD for the liner notes, which were only a small upside… and small might be an overstatement.

The only way collectables can be worth any money is if you find someone to sell them to. I’m thinking that the same idea can be applied to most of my hockey cards and comic books too. For me, there is very little sentimental attachment to a lot of things… a few things maybe, but on a day to day functional basis, no.

13:08… I'm seriously considering selling most things in my Dad's basement. I don't need everything down there, a few things are necessary, like my ball equipment, but otherwise, it's a waste of space.
If someone else could find some value in these things, then they would be more than welcome to give me a lowball offer. I'm not hurting for money and there is very little chance that anything down there would be worth anything in the future. So why keep it only to move it around?

I only want to carry things around that are functional or sentimental, so it will be mostly functional, if anything. I want to keep my living space very efficient.

We'll see how that goes.

13:26… "more logical brain thoughts."

Clearly, I have never been one to really follow my heart, because it doesn't make a good argument for anything that it wants.

There are plenty of beautiful people out there and the heart will "fall in love" with more than its fair share. At first glance at most of those people, they are undoubtedly attractive and they may also have a few more compatible elements to them, but most, if not all, will have something, if not a few things, that you would have to settle for when it comes to committing to them.
 
Commitment is a sticky thing, especially in this day and age. You can work your way into an impossible level of commitment without even trying these days and you are then forced to settle instead of settling down. Kids are generally the leading factor with settling.

My logical brain has always looked at seemingly good relationships as ones that don't require a lot of work. All relationships need at least a little bit of effort, but the better ones make that effort look so easy. Getting to know your partner, to a deep level, is very important and if you want to know more about them, it doesn't take a lot of hard work to do it… it shouldn't be very hard at all, especially if you really want to.

My approach to relationships has always been that way, in the few that I have had. I have always trusted my senses when it comes to other people… good, bad or extreme. For as many beautiful people that I have met, I have yet to meet what I believe is my perfect match. I have accepted the idea that a lady might have thought that I was worth a try and my approach has never changed. Taking it easy and treating them well, but I have fallen short in every case of getting to know them really well, caring enough to know what they both wanted and needed. I am pretty sure that if I did ever find that someone, that it wouldn't be an issue, because I would want to do everything that I have pointed out.
I have never been a fan of the traditional way of dating as many people as possible, in hopes that you'll find the perfect partner, or at the very least, the partner of least resistance. That's definitely a recipe for disaster, financially, emotionally and/or legally. The small feelings of "love" are not worth that cost to my logical brain. As great as those things might feel at the time, the overall cost just isn't worth it.
The real difficulty, especially nowadays, is there is so much media out there suggesting that it's out there. Movies, music and TV are a glutton of hope and there are some indications that if you don't find it, being alone is a horrible alternative.

I have admittedly fallen into that trap of loneliness, thinking that I was so depressed. Learning the ideas of love, settling down or just settling, had seen me with low spirits. I don't feel silly for feeling those things, they are certainly believable, but the alternative of settling with someone less than perfect or even worse, falling into the irreversible commitments of children with one of those partners, is not where I would want to end up.

I have been asked on some occasions how I remain in good spirits and I think my logical brain has a lot to do with it. I'm not being held back and I'm not holding anyone else back, especially with the events of the last few years. It's far more logical to approach life with positivity, because it rubs off on others. I never had an answer to the question right away, but if I'm asked again, I'll have this to fall back on.

15:08… "Deserve is my least favorite word."

I would even go so far as hating the word, deserve.
 
Do something or have or show qualities worthy of (reward or punishment). That's the definition on Google.

The idea is valid, my distaste for the word is more for the cultural value of it nowadays. It gets used way too often, I think. I can't think of an example, so this may not have been the best random thought. The literal definition does stand well in how it is used most of the time, but it still rubs me the wrong way.

Wednesday, July 20, 2022

2777 Wednesday, July 20th - afternoon

12:36… I haven't moved very far from the couch.  I'll need to get my Active Hour steps here soon, but there is a part of me that wants to get some thoughts on my disbelief of a higher power down.


I'm more than sure that other people have done similar writings and nothing supernatural has happened to them.  I'm sure if they shared it to the wrong people, something bad would have happened to them, which could have been thought to be an "act of God."  That nonsense is only further proof of the madness of religion.


The scientific community needs proof for something to be considered real, but the spiritual community has the opposite stance on that very thought.  The two sides have long been opposed to each other and unfortunately, the scientific community isn't a bunch of horrible people, they are just significantly outnumbered by those who may not understand why things happen.  


The spiritual community relies on the higher powers to decide a lot of things, as if they actually have any control.


12:57… I was reminded to get my steps, plus I did my 13:00 doses and I have moved back to the computer for a while.


I’m sure I’ve written before in my posts that the spiritual community is a big fan of the easiest answer and they don’t want to hear about all the reasoning that can be used to explain anything horribly complex.  There is a portion of my thinking that might link together the spiritual community and the global issue of global warming.  I’d like to create a poll which asks which community each person associates with and their stance on global warming.  I’d throw a question about what job/industry they also associate with, likely breaking the groups into some more predictable results.  The trouble with that poll/survey is that the results could be used in a very bad way or be believed to lead to terrible things, but with the right intentions, they can be used as an educational way.  How some people may choose to use that education is a different story.


My belief, as it may or may not come across, is that the spiritual community will end up being what ends up ultimately deciding what ends the human race.  There could be an argument that the capitalist community could end up being what drives us to the end of our civilization, but the logical capitalists will know how to make money when the globe falls into ruin.  There are a great deal of conservative oil barons out there, who are overly spiritual and it's their companies that are leading the way to further global warming.


It sounds like there are a good number of folks in the fossil fuel community, who want to do some good to make their money, power the globe and not do the globe an incredible amount of harm.  The real shame of it all is that the scientific community isn’t making any good progress in sustainable energy sources.


13:29… I moved back to the couch.  Sitting up wasn't doing me any favors.


The biggest problem with separating the two communities is the uproar that it would cause.  That uproar would likely lead to some serious violence, so if I was to hazard a guess, it would only happen once the scientific community broke away into space.  


The thinking behind shows like Star Trek likely stem from the more logical thinkers, while Star Wars has a bit more of a blend, taking the logical arguments about moving into space and the spiritual community has their elements with the force.  That's another argument altogether, but I can't say that I am a fan of either, so I'll leave it there.


I can see how the spiritual side is so appealing, it's easy and if you do good to each other than good will happen to you.  It's a simple way of thinking and it isn't wrong, it's only logical.  There's the Star Trek side showing up again, but the cultural shaming of Star Trek and its fans likely stems from this argument as well.


If only there was a way to disassociate Star Trek from my argument to somehow make it cool.  Sadly, I think I'm fucked there.


I'm not going to solve any issues here, it's been something that has been sitting in the back of my head.  I had some time today, so I just decided to write it down.  Now, I'm going to sort out my pills for the upcoming week.  


14:53… the spiritual side of Star Wars is shocking.  I'm not sure I have enough time to write it all down.  


15:55… Rachel did confirm with me that I will be picked up for the game and she’ll let me know when she’s on her way.  I’m assuming that Troy will be along too.


17:02… Tim & Friends was good and now the Big Bang Theory is on.