It's been like that for a while already and it never jumps immediately to the top of the list when I talk to a doctor. I'm glad I have it written down now. I thought of it early on in the walk, stopped to take a note and now I have it down.
Another thing I was thinking about on the walk, Mark and I walk in silence most of the time, so that let's my head think constantly.
I got to thinking a bunch of things on the walk, a lot of them had to do with the failures of the human race. I've highlighted my distaste for religion and rightly so.
The biggest failure, in my opinion, is the basis of society.
Society, the biggest separation between humans and animals, which is great, the human brain can do some wonderful things, if it takes its time and thinks it through. Unfortunately, the human race has come up with some silly things, which has more or less held us back from real greatness.
One of the greatest things about the combined societies on this very small planet is the belief that everyone should just get along, but that is also one its biggest shortcomings too. The visible lines of separation between groups of humans, be it territory, religion and/or economic system, have done a poor job of getting along with each other. Then throw in the other variances of these human groups (sexual orientation, gender identification and/or political party) and the lines are far less defined than ever before, making a lot more confusion and as a product of that, a lot more hate. Unfortunately, the biggest sticking point to all of the separations and/or the grey areas is that there are enough of each one of these groups, including the blurred grey areas, to make them believe that they are absolutely correct and everyone else is wrong, filling this world with all sorts of hateful feelings towards one another.
Such things like technology are really glowing achievements for mankind, but sadly, all of these shortcomings have done a hell of a job ruining any positive momentum that these achievements could really do for our kind.
The real unfortunate thing is that until we can safely split our groups from each other, via going out into the deep reaches of space, leaving this doomed planet behind and then letting each belief fend for themselves in the vast, ruthless cosmos. Otherwise, if we wanted peace, as a whole, there would have to be a lot of killing.
13:49… man, I seriously went on a tangent there, didn't I?
One of the other shortcomings I thought of was the idea of the term "love." More in the biblical sense, which kind of goes back to my distaste for religion. Romantic love, family love, brotherly love, and God's divine love are the four types of love in the Bible and only two have merit in the grand sense of everything. Family love and brotherly love. family love is an obvious one, where brotherly love, I believe it is the association of people by an outside source, like a team.
I, personally, am moving further and further away from the idea that romantic love is even real, much like that divine garbage. Romantic love is just another attempt to separate humans from the other animals on the planet. Unfortunately, much like religion, more than enough people believe in it, so therefore, it has to be right.
I, for one, do not believe that to be true, much like the other beliefs that have held the human race back, but I'm not going to put together a parade and make everyone mad at me. I don't need that shit.
No, this stems back to the pieces on my logical brain. It can certainly make a judgement on whether or not I prefer the way someone looks or acts, but I'm not going to walk the social tightrope of "romantic love" all for the sake of the instinctual need to start a family. I certainly haven't felt that instinctual need, especially not enough to make me settle for someone who is less than my perfect person.
Would I have settled if I made the mistake of not taking proper precautions? There is a very likely chance of that. Would any of those possibilities have turned out well? That's highly unlikely. Did I take a lot of proper precautions? No, I can admit that I didn't.
I believe I have noted this before, but I have never been one to chase those lovely ladies. Do I enjoy looking at them? You bet, I do. Would I know what to do with one if any of them chose me? Unlikely, but I have come to the idea that I should just ask them, as hot and steamy as that conversation would be.
No, the social programming of romantic love, through all the major entertainment mediums, has tried to get me to relent from logic and move towards the nonsensical trappings. It has tried so hard and nearly succeeded in trying to convince me that if I don't find anyone, I'd be lonely and loneliness is the worst.
It's so absolutely rare to see marriages that last for any great duration. The ones that do make it are likely more unlikely to be still together for anything greater than the convenience of not having to go through all the legal processes.
14:36… I've made some really good time on the phone here, as most of this was written on my Pixel 6.
