3064 Monday, October 31st - early morning

05:53… as much as religion has taught the world some good bits, like being kind to everyone, Christianity has really missed the mark or has led moat people down a poor path that hasn't kept up with the current time.

The biggest issue that I have with "scripts" like the Bible is that it was written by whomever at a time where very little had been established.  The interpretations of it throughout time have been done by "holy" people.  Unfortunately, interpretations are always 100% subjective and they can generally lean towards what the person or group wants or needs.

That, on that very root, is a scam.  It has been too widely integrated into the fibres of every society and that's where the human race will fail, as a whole.  The arguments of right and wrong will eventually develop into wars and the worst case scenario for all will go down and it doesn't feel too far away.  

06:13… just a thought that I needed to write down.

06:20… now all the thoughts are coming… I must be awake now.

The most evident element to this scam is how everyone is taught to follow and a select few are taught to lead.  I mean, how easy is that?

Be a good person, give us money to help us "guide" you better and pay us even larger sums of money to have us perform ceremonies that will help us "guide" you better as well.

The only thing going in religion's favor is just how established it is.  It has sunken into the fibres of a lot of people, so much so that they'll never leave.

If anything or anyone tried to duplicate it for their benefit, they would be called out as a fraud and face the laws in place that protects those established scams.

06:34… oh well, time to get up!

 

2981 Monday, October 3rd - early morning

03:43… looking back at my memories, trying to piece them together.  I seem to think that one of the few times I have been mad in my life was something that Nay did to me.  I seem to think that I was hanging around in England because of her.  I think I tried to push her to get together and she wasn't having any of that, but there was one night, I went up to Ipswich and she may have decided to go out with someone else, I got mad at her, slammed the door behind me and then went back to Colchester/Wormingford for the night and on that trek home, I decided that I would go back to Canada.

It might have been something close to that event, which changed my life's course.  I think that was the last time that I had been mad, until that time in February with Dad.  Wow.

03:56… I need that written down.

04:16… thinking about it more, Nay could have made my affinity towards older women and likely could explain how my philosophy on relationships came about.  

I seem to recall that when Nay and I hung out, it was just easy.  There was nothing overly difficult about it and after I tried to push it forward, she wasn't having any of that and I seem to think she chose someone else and that's what really pissed me off.

I'm going to share this with her and see how close my broken brain came down to it.  That would have been in 2005 and it was 17 years between times I literally got mad.

04:26… clearly, I'm good with her now.  Her apologizing for not sleeping with me makes way more sense now.

2975 Saturday, October 1st - early morning

04:45… I made a deposit 15 minutes ago and my mind has been going, much to the dismay of my body.

I caught myself thinking of reasons not to start a family and not wanting more people to suffer through the horrible society that we have going on at the moment is a big one.

I don't need my name or likeness to live on for future generations if all they're going to do is suffer through life.  

The planet is dying at a much faster rate than any other generation has seen, why make it worse?  Having more kids isn't necessarily going to make anything better.

I can understand the animal portion of the human psyche wanting to multiply around the world and that same animal portion doesn't really care about the future harm that it will do by multiplying, it just needs to multiply.

The way the human race has their governments and their beliefs has some dire consequences coming and it's silly to think otherwise.  The science of global warming is obviously winning and the people that understand that are ridiculously outnumbered by those who don't believe or care.  If I have learned anything, it's that the human race, after they have finished their formative learning years, however many they endure, they stop learning as a collective.

There's a part of me that is a little surprised by the lack of panic in society, but the "ignorance is bliss" approach to living is winning.  The "there's still a chance" group of optimists are doing their best to relieve the masses, but the masses don't want to learn what they can do to help out.

Society's insecurity and overall suspicion of anything and everything is likely the biggest hurdle anyone that wants to save the planet has to deal with.  If someone or some group has a good idea, the conspiracy theorists will have their hand at making sure a good portion of society is unsure if the idea is a positive one.  There are a lot of minds out there that shouldn't be thinking at all.

05:14… society is going to destroy society.  Full stop.